Ps: panic & paradigm shift

Should I press the panic button now?

I exactly have 8 weeks to prepare for MFA application deadlines and I'm stressing out that I may not be as prepared to apply as I thought I would be. I don't want to push it back another year since I really want to be in school by the fall of next year. Talking to my friend yesterday who happens to attend my first choice school made me realize how much room I have to improve on in terms of my work/ideas on making art to be able to go to grad school.

It was sort of painful for me to think that, hurt ego and all. But this is a complete paradigm shift for me. I'm no longer in Manila, so all I can do is suck it up if I really want to earn my MFA here in NY. Maybe I'll be M.I.A. for a bit here in my journal, but who knows...